Hello!!

Hellllloooooo!!! Been writing in another blog for sometime now!!

So yeah if i have a less personal rant ill post it here! Cool stuff!

HI BLOG!! Long time no post.. and i still think there are nul readers out there... (deep inside still wishing that there are people who love me enough to check upon me once in a while)

ok i'm gonna do this thing.. the 30 day challenge. i do have a lot of stuff to do these days- taking care of my dog, typing out sermons, hanging out with close friends - yeah that's a lot.. hahah! but this seems interesting, not too tedious, and i do see that it's good for self-growth and my writing skills.. so, WHY NOT?

HERE WE GO!

day 1 - your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is

CURRENT RELATIONSHIP STATUS: SINGLE ...
good question.. so, background story first - past relationships: had a bf longggg time ago and also for a looong time,.. puppy love but it's my first love, he was a great guy and it was probably the best time of my life so.. who can get over it right? haha... curcol dikit...

but now i'm single! honestly, not by choice... truth be told i would love to have a boyfriend or a very close guy friend *clears throat* these days... but i cant. i tried before. there is one potential candidate... and seriously of all seriousness... it would have been A BEAUTIFUL LOVE STORY. it's just like in the movies! *it still hurts when i think of it cos he is seriously a good guy and is my type* but i chose not to go on with it... cos not so long after i know this guy, i made a promise to Someone that i won't date until the time is right - it has something to do with my faith but i won't talk about it here. so i disappeared. mwaha. but despite all that i know that i'm still young and i'm not supposed to trust my emotions just yet, i don't know whether my feelings for this guy is truly real or is just acting up hormones. Here is the big question - Is it worth pursuing something you're not even certain about? With my sacred promise plus this question in mind, i made the rational choice to distant myself from him and ignore most of his calls and texts - well, sometimes i couldn't help it, i replied after 12 hours. yeah, he got pissed and never replied back - whateva!

=intermezzo=
I have another thought about love too anyway. For me, LOVE is A CHOICE. Love shouldNOT be based on feelings or the following reasons: " without him, my chest hurts" "he can hurt me and heal me." "My heart skips a beat whenever he's around." "Her eyes capture my heart." " It was love at first sight." - seriously, i want to puke when couples say that these are the reasons why they get married and love each other. feelings do not make a relationship work! why? because feelings fade away with time - trust me i see it with my very own eyes how this happens. What makes a relationship work is COMPATIBILITY. When you're in a relationship, ask yourself "Does he have what i don't have?" "Can I stand to live with this guy for the rest of my life?" "Do we share the same faith and values?" "Is he the right guy to go through the thick and thin of life with me?" and such questions... you get it... so, when the answer is all yes ... then you can say that you are willing to make the commitment to be with him... then you can say that you love him... then feelings can come in and it will be the sweetest icing on the cake.

HAHA enough about it. sooo how is it like being single?

i tell you... it's AWESOME. sometimes i do think about my time wih him1 and what it would have been like with him2 lol... but in a bigger picture, my life could not have been better. I can focus on what i wanna do and what i have to do without distractions. lol. can't say much about it.. i'm so used to being single i forgot how being in a relationship feels like. Well i know now that i don't have to watch my figure.. i can eat 2 packs of indomie in the middle of the night GUILT FREE. i can have dinner and supper and super late supper in one night GUILT FREE. hahaha... well sometimes i feel guilty cos i don't look that good anymore but i can get over that thought in like 3 seconds lol. so... this is the single life. i am very glad that i am because if i had been in a relationship all this time, i wouldn't have achieved what i have today. so i'm very grateful.

SO THAT'S IT! DAY 1. I don't think anyone is reading this! SO WHATEVER!!




Hanna Christina Sondakh...Do it with passion.

I seriously have no idea

Ok it's 1st day of A levels..

AND IT'S NOT LOOKIN' GOOD! AT ALL. agh!

i don't know what has happened to me... i have lost all passion and determination for school... i don't know i don't know i don't know

well one thing, the rollercoaster is goin' down.

HAIZ!

There are more papers to come... No worries!

Hanna Christina Sondakh...Do it with passion.

Finally, it fits.

yeah. it fits. my life... it fits.

Finally, after a year of adaptation and self-adjustment, it fits.
Finally, Singapore feels like home. I've been waiting for this actually, for so long. FINALLY!

Finally i feel good.

Okay this week actually is pretty hectic, BUT IT'S THE MOST FUN WEEK IN MY LIFE SO FAR!

it's my bday... and SO MANY FRIGGING people wished me a happy birthday! which makes me happy and makes me feel like I EXIST in their lives. So that's good.

and thanks to CI ERICA and ANGEL and UNCLE ANTHONY for throwing me an awesome dinner and hangout! it was funnnnnn and i'll never forget it haha.. can't talk much bout it tho.

IT'S AWESOME.



Hanna Christina Sondakh... Look Inside.

Movie Recommendation: Date Night

I just wanna recommend a movie to you guys ;)

it's DATE NIGHT! I have to say, this movie will make you laugh your butt off! This movie is equally, if not more than "Night At The Museum". Totally recommend this movie to all comedy lovers! ;) Go to your nearest cinema and watch it k?

This movie is not just about making you laugh, it has more than meets the eye. It's about family and how you stick up to each other no matter how rough the time is.

and i really think Steve and Tina would make a great couple in real life.

Hanna Christina Sondakh...Look Inside.

It's Time for A Change!

Hi readers, (as if you guys actually existed!)

wowww.. it's been ages since my last update. well , thanks to God that He has actually provided some ample time - amidst of my crazy schedule - and inspired me to write again.. :)

Well, my life has been SO MUCHHH better than the last time i blogged!

I've finally gotten the grip of life here in Singapore, been keeping up with itz crazey pace of life! Most importantly, i have to say that i have successfully immersed myself in the community without losing my true sense of identity as an Indonesian yoww!!

Life is great. Really. you wanna know the secret for having a great life? LOOK AT THE BIG PICTURE! Well for me, each stage of life is just another piece of puzzle which if you bring them all together someday, you will see how amazing God's plan in your life is! In other words, just live and enjoy the moment. Whatever you're going trough right now is part of His plan, His GREAT PLAN. Remember, God didn't create us to suffer, God wants us to be happy too, God wants us to have a great godly life both spiritually and physically :)

okay.. what else do i wanna talk about??

ohh today, today is a weird day... I just feel today is the day where i will reorganize my life. Although life has been great, it has been kind of messy at the same time. Too many things are going on now, SAT, School, Church, and the like. Singapore and this new found independent life have made me realize that my responsibilities are not gonna get any lesser as I grow up, there will be more of 'em coming, believe me! so that's why, i just wanna get things in order today. I want to schedule all preparation for exams, reorganize my life style (healthy living, enough sleep, more exercise), and you know ... just be a better person inside and outside.

u know what's even weirder!? Today's sermon is titled " I DON'T HAVE ENUF TIME!" omg.. even aunty Amanda poked me once she saw it (haha, i love you aunty amanda if you read this!). This triggered me even more to get my life in order. Well if you don't know what i'm blabbering about, actually i've been appointed to play the keyboard in the praise team - which means that i have to spend time to practise AT HOME, and clearly the first thing i said was " I HAD NO TIME! ". Even in every single practise i always said " I HAD NO TIME TO PRACTISE! "... ohhh the sermon's title without any hesitation just JABBED ME RIGHT THROUGH THE HEART! More to that, i have not been keeping up with my bible reading too... i feel so guilty , even more guilty now! Well on the bright side at least God didn't do it "the hard way" to warn me to get back on the right track! Thanks God for reminding me for the 100000th time. :)

todayyy i have started to tuition my friend too, Mr.Manish's niece MANISHA! she's a fun girl i have to say, and she's quick to learn which i love the most about her! Well some people have said that i'm good at teaching too (LOL, Self-praise!)

then i met the KAPLANERS who are looking for a place to live in singapore, altho they didn't end up living in mandarin gardens, i really hope they'll find a place as soon as possible! It'll be fun to have more ricsters in Singapore :))

well that's my day! it's 7 pm now and it's time to watch seinfeld... haha. my fave show. while i'll try to reorganize my room and my schedule.

okay, have a great week everyone :)

Hanna Christina Sondakh...Look Inside.


thanksgiving list: my church.my God. everything.

It's sunday dawn

I've been having trouble sleeping.. it's 5 AM!

Just 1 thing:

I MISS IT.

okay, that's all. God knows the rest of my thoughts.

Good night. Sleep Tight. God loves you all.

I miss you too, God, actually. I've been so caught up in school work now i barely think of You during schooldays. I miss you God... please hug me again before I sleep.


Hanna Christina Sondakh. Look Inside.